Monolith

The sky is blue.

I had a strong visualization this morning as I lay in bed alert and finally, disarmed. In the vision, I am at the bottom of a large cylindrical cavern, almost as magical as the Lascaux caves but more supernatural. I am pushing a large grey monolith with ruddy edges and a cloud like unfinished top. I am pushing it toward god. I can only imagine what the sky looks like but it is beautiful and meanwhile my eyes are sealed shut to focus my energy on my back pushing the block ever upward. It is almost erotic how strong I feel in this position. And I think, “I am pushing this monolith into the air. It is the only courage I know.”