I want to know what the fireworks feel like when they feel good. Is it when you light them? Would my control of the ignition make the fireworks less frightening? Is it when you can’t hear them? Do I need to distance myself from th eexplosion? Would watching them go off on a television make the acrid exposure to detonation on my block, in my room, in my lungs, disappear? Should I commemorate, honestly, authentically, my emancipation from empire, and this time, really accept tis surrender? I want to know what the fireworks feel like, when they feel good.